BREATHE. OUT NOW.

This song is a means of honoring my different stages of grief and allowing all the things grief has been trying to tell me to surface.

Breathe (Prod. by INA) | What must have been going through my mind as a baby when being set for adoption? How has it felt to sit in several hospitals and funeral homes growing up? Why does grief come when it does? And how do I breathe through it?

How do we breathe when the weight of grief is sitting so heavily on our chest? And if we give grief our space and our time, allowing ourselves to feel it fully, what are we letting go of? And as we let go, what takes it space?

In my experience, the answer is air.

As someone whose always loved to layer sounds, finding beauty in the dissonances and resolutions, this process felt spiritual, as I aimed to take apart and layer my emotions. I throughly enjoyed putting this song together, in the quiet of my grandma’s home. Beginning with one vocal layer and building on it over and over again, I began assigning each vocal layer to a stage of grief I felt deeply, paying close attention to the tones of the sound as well as how they blended with the other ones.

In the end, I found myself with 7 final layers, each expressing peace and weightlessness in sitting with the heaviest emotions